We shall never surrender


churchillWe shall defend our island, whatever the cost may be, we shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender.

Winston Churchill

My favorite part of a great inspirational speech. Every time I hear it, my excitement heightens as he nears the words…

“we shall never surrender”.

In our lives we have had both fight and fear. Both victory and defeat. But when this speech broke the silence of my morning commute, it delivered a viewpoint of my past that I thought was ‘surrender’. See, I have often viewed my past sins as defeat rather than something I fought for. My view has been that I was weak and I allowed my sins to leave me on the battleground bloodied and immobile. Sometime near death. Waiving the white flag.

But I wouldn’t waive it and “I shall never surrender”.

For years, I fought to justify my alcohol consumption and to find peace with my porn addiction. I battled to keep emotions of bitterness, anger, and resentment deep-seeded in my heart. Sin began to control my life and steer me down a path of destruction. My sins would affect relationships and in the end the only relationship I truly had was with myslef. I was a fighter but for all the wrong things. To win another battle that rewarded nothing but more emptiness. Delivered more darkness and left me as I was before.

A day came when the war ended and being a soldier for sin was over. I had rode on the crazy train of selfishness and I ran out of fight. I lay on the battleground, bloodied and immobilized. I couldn’t go any longer. I was alone and confused. It was at the time in my life that I would look up from where I lay to see the hand of God outstretched. I began to fight again but this time not for my sin but against guilt and shame and ultimately help. I was ashamed to hold His hand. In those low times in my life God was always there and he never surrendered His grace and mercy for me. He never gave up on the soldier that fought so hard against his holiness and fought relentlessly for the world instead of Him.

Today, I walk onto the battlefield recruited by Jesus Christ. A different soldier. A different fight. What God has done for me and through me in the last few years as been wonderful and amazing. He has renewed me and given me new fight. A new desire that burns within and creates that passion to war against what used to consume me. To war against what is not holy and what does not bring glory to Him.

There are going to be more battles ahead in my life. Things that will war against my freedom but with God I know one thing is for sure…

 We shall defend our island, whatever the cost may be, we shall fight on the beaches, we shall fight on the landing grounds, we shall fight in the fields and in the streets, we shall fight in the hills; we shall never surrender.

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